there is nothing magical about longing

 

Coelacanths were once known only from fossils

and were thought to have gone extinct approximately

65 million years ago, during the great extinction

in which the dinosaurs disappeared.

— The Smithsonian

 

i don’t know what to tell you.

last night, i slept on top of all my blankets

& dreamt that i weighed 200 pounds, filled

with oil & brain-fat—i was as old as the world.

 

i dreamt that people started saying i was extinct

& so i killed time playing poker underwater, waiting

to be rediscovered. hook line & sinker, hella endangered.

oh well. a fish is a fish is a girl asleep. & truth is, all

i ever dream about is my body becoming my own.