there is nothing magical about longing
Coelacanths were once known only from fossils
and were thought to have gone extinct approximately
65 million years ago, during the great extinction
in which the dinosaurs disappeared.
— The Smithsonian
i don’t know what to tell you.
last night, i slept on top of all my blankets
& dreamt that i weighed 200 pounds, filled
with oil & brain-fat—i was as old as the world.
i dreamt that people started saying i was extinct
& so i killed time playing poker underwater, waiting
to be rediscovered. hook line & sinker, hella endangered.
oh well. a fish is a fish is a girl asleep. & truth is, all
i ever dream about is my body becoming my own.